Tuesday, September 6, 2011

here we go again...

So, tomorrow is it....

I'm headed back to work after having been off since the end of April.
My brain is going in so many directions. Part of me looks forward to going back, getting into the groove of taking care of people again, and reconnecting with the co workers I happen to like, (and avoiding the ones I don't).
Part of me is scared, because I am still having some pain issues with my back and shoulders, and at times even my knees. I still seem to have a bunch of relaxin floating around my body from the pregnancy. Literature says it can take 3 months to get it all out. Your body makes 10 times the relaxin it needs while you're pregnant. I can sure tell.
Part of me wants to stay home, with my boy, so that I don't miss a single solitary thing. But I know that option is not realistic, nor would it be healthy, for either me, or him. Even at such a young age, he has to start learning some independence from Mom. Thats a tough one. Of course he has MM and MG here to meet his needs, and I know they are going to continue to be awesome at that. But I won't be here to well,
be here.
Deep cleansing breath!
Its going to be all good.... Once again, we will adjust and find our new rhythm


Daryl said...

What a sweet schmoopie he is .. and it will be hard but you can and will do it .. you are one tough mama! xo

sybil law said...

I am soooo glad I didn't have to make that decision - it would've killed me!!
Still - you'll all be okay. Where's the update?!

Finding Pam said...

He looks so cute in this picture. Good luck with returning back to work. It takes time to adjust, but I know you will do great.