Tired

Oh I am so tired....

I know, I know...

babies+parents= no sleep.

But its really not just the sleep thing, because frankly, MM is really good to me when it comes to sleep. Whenever he can, he gets up with Mustang Boy and does a middle of the night feeding so that I can sleep as much as I can.

I am emotionally tired.

Its not a bad thing, I don't think. It shows I'm human, really. The last week has been tough, MB is having problems with being constipated and gassy, and there is NOTHING worse then hearing your baby scream and cry from something so simple as wanting to have a BM, or even fart. Its getting better, slowly, too slow for my taste. Other than that, he is staying awake longer, holding his head up and looking around, and he has started to smile at me, purposefully, especially when I tickle his chin. He also makes really sweet noises to me while I am doing things with him. I think he is telling me his secrets..

But then, he gets hungry, and eats, and then the pain again... and I want to cry with him. (and sometimes, I do).

Yes, we are using the Mylicon, we've made and given him more of the karo syrup water, warm baths, belly massage. Even rectal stimulation. (I know, TMI).

We see the pediatrician tuesday, I'm wondering if we need to change his formula. He is getting breastmilk, and high calorie preemie formula right now. We shall see...

Time stand still!

Time continues to fly by. Tomorrow, Mustang Girl is starting her SENIOR year in high school...

it seems like yesterday I was blogging about her graduating from Eighth Grade. It is scary how fast time goes by. I'm afraid that I'm going to turn around tomorrow and Mustang Boy is going to be starting kindergarten. Then graduating himself.... for the first time in a long time I am wishing that I had a way to slow things down a bit. Instead, I am trying to enjoy every moment. Especially before I head back to work...

We took a longer trip with him this weekend, an over night one. We attended a friends wedding reception, then drove to my parents house the next day. MB did pretty well, until the ride home, he was so tired of the car seat, that soothing him was nearly impossible. We were all so glad to get home and back to our routine, such as it is. The routine is about to change, though, since MG is starting school, MM is starting his classes again, and I am going back to work soon. Finding our new normal over the next few months is going to be interesting, but we've figured it out so far, so I am sure we will muck our way through it....

Meanwhile, here is a picture of MB relaxing with his grandfather...

Oh, how we've grown!

One month left

It seems like a long time, but I know now it's not.

I go back to work in one month.

I should actually be going back in about a week, but I got my leave extended, related to Mustang Boy's prematurity. (Go, me!)

Part of me is ready to go to work, and enjoy my job again. I do miss nursing other people.

Part of me wants to quit today and stay home with our son, enjoying every second.

That isn't an option. And I don't really want it to be, honestly. I like working. But its going to be tough, driving away that first night.

What really helps is that I know I am leaving him in very capable hands.

I knew that MM was a great father, anyone can see that when they see him interact with MG. But seeing him with our son? OMG I could not have found a better man to procreate with! Seriously. I love watching the two of them together. I know while I am at work that everything is going to be better than fine, and that MB will be in the best of hands. That will make going to work again so much easier.

Hopefully I won't fall asleep mid shift....